book of autumn thirst: but soon will have to

[book of autumn thirst]

but soon will have to

i gave up this dream of 1
six more days and i’ll be home 2
and no more troubled to be alone; 3
six more months and i’ll be home, 4
finally content to be alone; 5
six more years and i’ll be home, 6
at last secure to be alone; 7
six more seconds i’ll be home, 8
the bullet breaks skin then breaks bone. 9
6.5.95

Ego driven