hate: variations on a theme of my youth
hate: variations on a theme of my youth
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to be made of hate; 2
let every vanishing bird 3
own my gaze. 4
this desert oasis, 5
the persistence of fate; 6
and if purity of one single 7
emotion is all i’m to take 8
then i’ll take what i ordered; 9
it’s a good enough plate. 10
2 11
to be made of hate 12
is not hard long 13
for it hardens the hater. 14
3 15
to be made of hate 16
is good; 17
to be without its complement 18
is right; 19
for what efficacy is love 20
once seeds are sown at night? 21
4 22
to be made of hate 23
is pretty, 24
even the reflection agrees, 25
for what higher flattery 26
is mimicry? 27
what higher praise? 28
all hate inspires imitation 29
in or out of phase. 30
5 31
to be made of hate i never aspired; 32
a lucky career i fell into; 33
just a natural talent, 34
a success that had to be, 35
a supply you’ve all demanded. 36
6 37
to be made of hate was all the rage 38
and it burned out more than it brought of age. 39
7 40
to be made of hate or not to be; 41
to be made or unmade 42
a creator presupposes. 43
where i unmade her the green grass grows, 44
is just of cutting height 45
when she remade me. 46
8 47
to be made of hate is sung as if it 48
were a poem 49
and perhaps it once would be 50
when justice courted felicity, 51
when you were true and i was me 52
and the sky alone fouled the sea– 53
see now the operation 54
of human integrity, 55
see your tiny lies add up and 56
fill those seas 57
and still deny complicity. 58
i’m made of hate because i can see 59
human evil is scaled 60
only by each human’s capacities. 61
9 62
to be made of hate for fucking bitches 63
i chose to fuck and thus 64
hate switches upon itself. 65
to be made of hate implies 66
all hated things are 67
contained within 68
my freewill’s borderlines. 69
10 70
to be made of hate, 71
to kiss the fear 72
that love dilute; 73
to accept a nature 74
to copulate 75
with this at least resolute. 76
11 77
to be made of hate i’ve pride 78
worn like a canary 79
as fine pitched 80
in memory i now quiet; 81
made of quiet 82
made an ocean of quiet 83
you can almost hear– 84
between you and me, 85
between the moon and here. 86
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